To be honest, I really hoped and thought I would have a heart by now. It is disappointing, to say the least, that I am still here waiting. Every day I struggle between the strong desire for God to answer this prayer we are all praying and the knowledge that there is another family that is involved here and God is doing something in their lives as well. So I have to regularly talk myself back into perspective and choose to be patient.
I am 68 days into my wait here at Mayo Jacksonville in case anyone is wondering. The days go by really fast thanks to many friends and family visits, walks outside, exercising, books and magazines I’ve been given and doing lots of homework with my son 🙂 The nurses are wonderful and I love the doctors here as well. They are keeping me stable with some tweaks to my medications and overall I am doing well. So really I can’t complain at all about anything except that I just want to go home!
Waiting on the unknown is daunting. Yet when you know that God is in control and you are waiting on Him for His best, there is solace in that waiting. In Isaiah 40:30 it says “those who wait for the Lord will renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” I am seeking to submit to this truth every single day that I am here. Some days are definitely better than others!